Letting go (just a little)!!!

   This may sound silly to some, but if you know me well I'm kind of a freak when it comes to letting go of my kids.  I guess I have the Mother Hen syndrome!  Let me explain. You will be so proud of me because I'm so proud of my self I must say!!  Yesterday my parents were in town and Emeli called me as we were driving home wanting to know where Grandma and Grandpa were and whywas it taking so long.  She proceeded to tell me she knew they were going back home and that they hadn't spent enough time with her and she needed them!  For some crazy reason I mentioned to her "well would you like to go to Yuma all by your self with them for a couple of days"  oh my goodness the excitement on the other end of the phone was priceless.  I went on to tell her "we are on our way and we'll talk about it when we get home".  When I hung up I thought I better ask Grandma if that was OK and of course she was excited, but a little shocked that I would let her go.  After all the talk of it my mind was racing and  I thought to my self what did I just do!!!!   As I thought about it all I realized I needed to let go a little and that it would be so good for the both of us.  It was something that I needed to do!  So we packed her up and she was on her way dancing all around full of excitement that is until I loaded her into the car.  I looked at her and her bottom lip began to quiver and big huge crocodile tears streamed down her cheeks.  I hugged her tight and told her she was going to have so much fun and how much I loved her, and of course one last little plug that if she really didn't want to go she didn't have to.  I know I'm horrible!  She proclaimed her independence and said "Mom I'm sad because I'm going to miss you so much, but I still really want to go".  I kissed her a couple more times and we said goodbye!!  I felt a little sick to my stomach just till I knew they were home safe:)  

It is amazing how with one less child  how fast bedtime is and breakfast and everything else :)   I do miss her, but I know she is having the time of her life and I am excited for her and her new found Independence.   Oh and by the way each time I've called  to say goodnight or good morning to her she says hi and that she's got to go.  There is no time for long talks ( what was I thinking that this would be hard for her).   Rich and I have already begun to talk of when we could leave all three of them!!!! HEE HEE HEE